My 3rd Dimension

maybe i shall not call it 'lust', it's just the nature awakening of that something in me.

was away for a week. been into the nature. into the sea. i never know i would love the sea so much. as a non professional swimmer, i never dare to dream of going scuba diving or snorkeling or even just swimming in the sea. i love swimming, but only in the pool. now, i love swimming in the sea, too.

it was, and it is still... a unforgettable experience. probably because of him. i do not know him. all i know is his name is Ben, he is a part time lifeguard at the beach. he is dark, strong, with the smell of man. attractive not because of his look, but... i don't know.. there is this x-factor in him. i was struggling hard to reach the corals and fishes, when he suddenly appeared next to me, and grab my hand and swim forward. within seconds, i saw fishes, i saw corals... all types of beautiful creatures swimming around us...

just the two of us. swimming into the deep blue sea. we could hear each other's heart beats. due to my unsteady swimming technique, i have to cling on to him so much. he wrapped me up so much. we hugged... but we didnt kissed.. we should have? it has been a while since i last hugged a man like that. so warm. so caringly. so gently.

when we finally parted by the beach, pinch of missing him is in the air. but of some reasons, mutually we didn't leave behind any notes to carry on further. though he did ask, i don't know why i hesitated, and smile away. maybe, i just know that, it's for lust, and not for future. maybe, i just know that it's a sparkle of the summer which would remain forever sweet in memories.

it has been a week. i still miss that nature driven thirst of love and care. it is magical. it is amazing. in the sea. the wildness. the excitement. the yearn. the zest. the eroticism.

would i see you again?